Sorry, I got lost.

I am so sorry for neglecting this blog for such a long time and not posting, 10 months is a very long time oops! I guess my head has been in several different places allowing me no time to even glance at this blog, however I'm back and am going to try and blog more often, and hopefully do a post a day during the christmas period, fingers crossed.

10 months is a massive amount of time where a lot of things can happen, in my case I've went through much a character change and journey throughout these past months. I have became ridiculously close to people who have also became my enemies, made friends, had a boyfriend for 6 of the months, but now do not, been reunited with my mother in London, lost all contact with certain people, got closer to my dream. Its been an odd ride. However I'm back to start a fresh. I find it so crazy how you can change, and go in many directions in your personality and the way you act which are influenced by certain individuals, and it takes that one person to tell you what a dick your being to realise what is good and bad for you, and where along the way did you lose yourself. This is what I've found extremely difficult, and at first it is hard to hear because you are telling yourself it isn't true, however you know in the pit of your stomach something isn't right. I know this is terribly deep for a post however I promise this will lighten up, I just needed to get it off my chest. As a lot of people know I have an obsession with Cara Delevingne and yesterday she put an amazing quote discussing about getting all the negativity out of your life, and I have done just that and feel 100% a better person. I just feel all the drama and bitcheyness is gone which are two things I really don't need and its great to actually put time and effort into the people that are worth caring about.

The Genius life changing Cara quote --------->

Okay enough of the deep shit and more about christmas! Now, I have had so much difficulty with christmas this year as I have no idea what I want, this is very unusual for me and its very frustrating when I see peoples faces fill with worry when I say this as I'm such a picky person. This is first hand evidence I'm going to get a load of rubbish this year, however I'm not too bothered as I'm far more excited for the family bonding! Something I love about my families christmas is how everyone comes together literally to be silly and play old school board games which is fabulous and makes christmas for me every year.  

Seasons greetings and see you tomorrow. x
                                                                                                         

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